Beau Lamarre-Condon continued to lash out at the Crown prosecutor after lunch, accusing him of intentionally omitting evidence from the trial.
Lamarre-Condon previously told the court he was deeply suicidal due to his time as a police officer, during which he dealt with dead bodies and traumatised victims.
He told the court his suicidal ideation and attempts were being misconstrued as premeditation for the alleged murders of Jesse Baird and Luke Davies.
The former cop said he had planned to take his own life in the Royal National Park in October 2023, but the rope came loose and he fell and went home.
He said that his mother saw rope burn on his neck and told him to go to a psychologist.
The court heard he went to the Bondi Medical Centre. Records from the centre showed that he told doctors he didn’t have suicide ideation.
Lamarre-Condon told the court he feared he’d lose his job if he told the truth.
Crown prosecutor Brett Hatfield SC asked why he decided on using a rope when he had a gun.
‘I was too scared to use my gun because … it’s very traumatic for the people who find them,’ Lamarre-Condon said.
Mr Hatfield said: ‘So you decided a rope would be better?’
He replied: ‘Yes, just like many of my other colleagues who have guns who decide to hang themselves, Mr Crown.’
Mr Hatfield put to Lamarre-Condon that the suicide attempt wasn’t true, saying: ‘You weren’t suicidal, you were homicidal.’
He suggested Lamarre-Condon was upset over Baird’s ‘rejection of you’.
Lamarre-Condon said: ‘God sees everything, God knows my intentions, that was not one of them.’
Mr Hatfield pointed out that Lamarre-Condon earlier claimed to be making $120,000 as a police officer, and another $100,000 on the side.
‘You couldn’t leave the police force because you had a million-dollar mortgage?’ he asked.
Lamarre-Condon said: ‘That was one of the reasons.’
Mr Hatfield pointed to previous evidence when Lamarre-Condon said he feared for his job because he heard one of his managing sergeants would fire anyone on a mental health plan.
He asked: ‘You were making $120,000 and you heard a rumour that a sergeant is going to terminate your job?’
Lamarre-Condon then accused the prosecutor of ‘hiding witnesses from the jury’.
He said two witnesses could have given evidence about his suicidal ideation and his mortgage, but the Crown refused to call them.
‘Mr Lamarre, you can call whatever witnesses you like,’ Mr Hatfield said.
‘You can call any witnesses.’
Lamarre-Condon said he requested to call them, but they didn’t see the relevance.
Mr Hatfield asked whether his alleged suicidal ideation and attempts had anything to do with his murder charges, and accused him of trying to garner sympathy from the jury.
Lamarre-Condon said it was relevant and that he had to live with the fact that he’d spoken to colleagues moments before they took their own lives.
Mr Hatfield then asked Lamarre-Condon about his trip to Bali over New Year in 2023/24.
Lamarre-Condon agreed that he was looking at buying property in Bali, but said that didn’t mean he wasn’t suicidal.
Mr Hatfield also pointed out that he was looking for a silencer in Bali, to which Lamarre-Condon said he wanted to take his own life but he didn’t want anyone to find his body.
Mr Hatfield suggested that buying a silencer to commit suicide wasn’t necessary.
Lamarre-Condon said he didn’t want anyone to find his body.
