Britney Spears has released a lengthy 22-minute audio rant accusing her parents of abuse, saying they set up their controversial conservatorship over her after being introduced to the idea by an unidentified woman.
The 40-year-old singer posted the rambling recording to YouTube Sunday night in a video that has since been made private, offering new details on the oppressive arrangement that ended last April after more than 15 years.
The clip features Spears speaking at length about her experiences during this time, offering a chronological account of the events that led her to being placed into the conservatorship – in which her father Jamie controlled her decisions and finances.
It also sees the Oops! I Did It Again songstress – who recently deleted her Instagram – allege that her 2008 forced hospitalization was pre-meditated, and the product of a plot to take control of her millions.
Perhaps most surprisingly, though, the de facto public service announcement saw Spears, who is currently in the midst of an explosive and highly-public row with her ex-husband Kevin Federline, suggest that she did not have drugs or alcohol in her system prior to her hospitalization – as it was previously claimed.
It comes days after the embattled pop star made her first foray back into the music business last Friday with Elton John in the duet Hold Me Closer, and almost half a year before a judge freed her from father’s figurative vise.
Britney Spears, seen here with her parents Lynne and Jamie, has released a lengthy 22-minute audio rant accusing her parents of abuse, saying they set up their controversial conservatorship over her after being introduced to the idea by an unidentified woman
The clip begins with Spears explaining that she’s had ‘tons of opportunities’ to share her story – including a lucrative offer from Oprah Winfrey – But that she thinks it is ‘silly’ to get paid to open up about her hardships – spurring her to post the tell-all.
She added that she had hesitated to share her story sooner since being released from her conservatorship earlier in the year, out of fear of being judged or reprimanded, and was now ‘confident’ enough to tell the world.
She described being ‘punished’ by her abusive father, Jamie, 70, with the conservatorship in 2008 when she was 25, nearly a decade after the Louisiana native thrust to superstardom with her music career after what she called an abusive childhood.
Under the oppressive arrangement – which she said was pressed on her after she spoke to one of her psychiatrists in a British accent – Spears recalled how she ‘was not allowed to see anyone’ and a was a prisoner in her own home.
Under the oppressive arrangement – which she said was pressed on her after she spoke to one of her psychiatrists in a British accent – Spears described how she ‘was not allowed to see anyone’ and a was a prisoner in her own home
Spears – pictured here in 2013 during her conservatorship – is currently in the midst of an explosive and highly-public row with the father of her two kids Sean and Jayden
She also recalled on the day before her forced hospitalization being awoken by a SWAT team and three helicopters enlisted by her father.
‘Literally the extent of my madness,’ a tired-sounding Spears says in the recording, ‘ was playing chase with paparazzi – which is still to this day one of the most fun things I did being famous.’
Spears revealed that earlier that day, her mother Lynne, 67, had warned her of her father plans, saying that she had heard ‘that people were coming here today to talk to you’ – with Spears at the time not realizing the meaning of her mom’s words.
‘We should probably go a hotel or something,’ Lynne reportedly told her.
Four hours later, Spears said, ‘there were over 200 hundred paparazzi outside my house, videotaping me through the window of an ambulance’ while being ‘held down on a gurney.’
Spears went on to assert that she now knows that incident was ‘premeditated’ – a plan she said was carefully carried out by her father to get control of her finances.
She went on to assert that an unnamed woman ‘introduced the idea to my dad’ adding that her mom also ‘helped him follow through and made it all happen.’
Spears did not specify when this supposed encounter took place or how she came to learn of it, but remained adamant that there had been a plot in place to get her hospitalized.
‘It was all set up,’ Spears says in the recording, adding that at the time there had not been under the influence of drugs or alcohol, as her father told police and emergency responders who arrived on the scene.
‘There was no drugs or alcohol in my system,’ Spears sniped in the scathing clip. ‘Pure abuse.’
‘And I haven’t haven’t even really shared even half of it,’ the singer went on, just weeks after engaging in an online war of the words with former flame Kevin Federline over the parenting of their own teenage children.
She proceeded to bring up her childhood in Louisiana, being under her ‘dad’s control’ as she put it.
‘I was scared and fearful,’ she recalled. ‘I didn’t really do anything. None of it made sense to me.’
She detailed how Jamie ‘loved to control every thing I did’ in the lengthy tell-all recording.
‘I remember the first he said, “I’m Britney Spears, and I’m calling the shots” – and I’m like, “Alrighty then,”‘ she told her nearly 10 million YouTube subscribers.
‘All I do remember is I had to do what I was told. I was told I was fat every day I had to go to the gym, I had to just, and I’d never remember feeling so demoralized.
‘And just, they made me feel like nothing. And I went along with it because I was scared. I was scared and fearful.’
Those fears, she said, continued on into her 15-plus-year conservatorship, demoralizing the singer and scaring her from fighting against her father, who she said during this time had control over all of her actions and decisions.
‘Honestly,’ Spears said of the first eight or so years of her conservatorship, ‘I just I didn’t give a f**k anymore – because I couldn’t go where I wanted to go.
‘I couldn’t have the nannies that I wanted to have; I couldn’t have cash – and it was just demoralizing. So I was kind of like in this conspiracy thing, of people claiming and, like, treating me like a superstar.’
‘But yet,’ Spears added, ‘they treated me like nothing,’ at this point tearing up in the clip.
She went on to recall the hardships she was forced to undergo during this time, like being subjected to a lack of privacy and being monitored by her dad’s team and doctors on a constant basis.
‘No privacy, no door. Nothing,’ Spears protested. ‘How did they get away with it? And what the f**k did I do to deserve that? I couldn’t even smoke cigarettes, people on death row can smoke cigarettes.’
She added that she could not even have the keys to her own car.
‘No cash, no cigarettes, no door for privacy – it changed me,’ she said, adding that she was forced to work seven days a week during this stretch by her handlers, who monitored what she ate and what she was doing at all times – all while upholding a strict schedule.
‘I did work seven days a week – no weekends were off,’ Spears recalled of this period, which lasted roughly until 2016, when she began to push back on her oppressors. ‘From eight to six I work some times at nine o’clock I’d be able to watch a movie.’
She described the invasive circumstances she was subjected to at this time, saying she was forced to undress in front of others and undergo ‘militant’ forms of therapy.
‘They put me in an ignorant state of mind to make me feel like I needed them,’ she said, adding that she was allegedly told, ‘If you don’t do what we say, we’re going to show you who’s boss.’
Spears went on to assert a previous claim that she was forced into another mental health facility in early 2019 because she objected to a dance move during one of her rehearsals.
During this time, Spears, said, she was forced to tell the public – whom she said slowly became aware of her secret struggles through rumors and her appearances in the media – that she was seeking treatment due to her father’s colon illness.
However, behind closed doors, she told subscribers that she was ‘crying’ to her dad and then-conservator Jamie Spears and her team, asking why she was being subjected to this treatment.
‘I was, like, “Why are you guys doing this?”‘ the singer recalled saying to her dad and handlers, recalling that Jamie’s last words to her before they finally cut ties: ‘Now you don’t have to go, but if you don’t go, we’re going to go to trial and you’re going to lose.
He allegedly added: ‘I have way more people on my side than you [do]. You don’t even have a lawyer, so don’t even think about it.’
Britney further described the amount of control that Jamie and his co-conservators had over her even at this point, more than a decade into the arrangement, sharing that she was once in a ‘secret relationship’ with an unnamed man.
‘I was talking to a guy, and he wanted to just leave the country with me. We had it all set up to leave, and it was a secret relationship,’ she revealed.
‘How the f*** did they get away with it?’ Britney Spears tears into dad Jamie for being ‘really abusive’ to her and her brother, says he ‘controlled everything I did’ and left her terrified because ‘I knew they could hurt me’ in explosive YouTube rant
Britney Spears has taken aim at her father Jamie in a shocking new audio clip that was uploaded to YouTube on Sunday night.
Spears, 40, was speaking candidly about the circumstances that led to her being placed in a conservatorship in 2007 and how her life unfolded while her decisions were controlled by her family.
Speaking about her family’s behavior during the conservatorship, the Stronger singer asked: ‘How the f*** did they they get away it?’
The singer says that her father was constantly abusive to her and her brother, Bryan.
When talking about her brother, Spears said: ‘My brother was a football player. And my dad was really, really hard on him when he was younger, really abusive.’
Spears said that her father ‘controlled everything I did’ but that she ‘had to go along because I knew they could hurt me.’
In the clip, which has now been set to private, Spears says that when she was 30 years old, she was ‘living under my Dad’s rules.’
In the clip, which has now been set to private, Spears says that when she was 30 years old, she was ‘living under my Dad’s rules. Spears is pictured here with her father in 2015
Spears alleges that in 2019, she was admitted to a mental health facility against her will as retaliation for voicing opinions during dress rehearsals for her canceled Vegas residency Domination
Spears alleges that in 2019, she was admitted to a mental health facility against her will as retaliation for voicing opinions during dress rehearsals for her canceled Vegas residency Domination.
She said: ‘I didn’t want to ever go there. I remember calling my dad on the phone crying, and he said “You have to listen to the doctors. I can’t help you now.”‘
The Toxic singer said: ‘Now you don’t have to go, but if you don’t go, we’re going to go to trial and you’re going to lose. I have way more people on my side than you [do]. You don’t even have a lawyer, so don’t even think about it.’
Spears alleges that her father ‘loved to control everything I did.’
Despite her anger at her father, Spears said that she is ‘honestly more angry’ with her mother, Lynne. She said her mother did not speak up for her child and would ‘innocently hide’ when questions were raised about the conservatorship.
Spears reiterated that it was her mother who sought the conservatorship even though it was signed by her father. The singer made a similar allegation in a November 2021 Instagram post.
The singer, who recently made her return to music with the release of the song Hold Me Closer alongside Elton John, said that her stay in the mental health facility led her to stop believing in God.
She said: ‘How did they get away with it, and what the f**k did I do to deserve that?’
At the time, Spears was convinced to say that the reason for her mental health issues was her father’s colon cancer diagnosis.
Eventually, Spears says that she grew strength because she ‘didn’t reach out to my Dad anymore.’
Spears said: ‘She’s going to come running back to us, because, you know, we’ve scared her. And we’re the bosses here. But I didn’t. I just stalled. And I stalled and I stalled and I stalled.’
She went on: ‘And finally, I think they just knew I wasn’t going back. And I finally got a lawyer of what a wonderful friend finally got me a lawyer. And he really helped me through it.’
Spears goes on: ‘They literally killed me. They threw me away. My family threw me away. I was a machine. It was insane how hard I worked
Nope! Britney Spears says that she ‘never invited’ her older brother Bryan Spears, 45, to her recent wedding to Sam Asghari, despite the 45-year-old’s girlfriend previously citing a scheduling conflict as the reason for his absence. The 40-year-old pop star set the record straight in a lengthy text post shared to her Instagram on Thursday, where she slammed Bryan and the rest of the Spears family for their alleged treatment of her during her now-terminated conservatorship; Britney and Bryan pictured
Spears goes on: ‘They literally killed me. They threw me away. My family threw me away. I was a machine. It was insane how hard I worked.’
At one point during her conservatorship, Spears said that she was involved in a ‘secret relationship with a man. At one point, the pair discussed moving out of the country together.
She said: ‘My biggest fear was what would my dad do? If I did do something wrong? What if I left the country? What and what if they found me and what would they do? And I said, I feel like they would lock me up or something or really hurt me.’
In the conclusion of the video, Spears says that she has received plenty of offers for a formal sit down interview.
Jamie Spears has consistently denied any wrongdoing in relation to the conservatorship.
In July, Jamie Spears was ordered by a Los Angeles Superior Court judge to take part in a deposition about his actions heading the conservatorship the pop star was under for more than 13 years.
Judge Brenda Penny ruled that Jamie, 70, must schedule a deposition by August 12 after he was previously served with notices to sit for a deposition from Britney’s lawyer Mathew Rosengart and did not appear, Page Six reported.
Rosengart said in legal docs filed in May that Jamie had been ‘running and hiding’ from being deposed, and must account ‘for his misconduct – under oath – as required by law.’
In July, Jamie Spears was ordered by a Los Angeles Superior Court judge to take part in a deposition about his actions heading the conservatorship the pop star was under for more than 13 years
Jamie’s attorney Alex Weingarten last month called for the Grammy-winning singer, 40, to be deposed over the ‘incendiary allegations of various factual matters’ that she had made via social media.
Rosengart told the court that he felt that the move to push Britney into a deposition was ‘retaliatory’ and ‘abusing the legal process,’ amid an attempted probe of Jamie’s handling of funds and alleged surveillance of the singer.
The lawyer said the …Baby One More Time singer cannot testify to matters about the conservatorship since she was the one living under it, and that she would be traumatized again in facing questions about it.
Rosengart, who has represented the Toxic artist since last year, suggested that Jamie’s legal team should either depose Jamie or Britney’s ex-business manager Lou Taylor for information on the arrangement.
Another issue heard before the court Wednesday was Jamie’s request Britney’s estate cover his attorney’s fees in the wake of the termination of the conservatorship this past November. After Jamie was dropped by his former legal team, he hired Weingarten at an hourly rate of around $1,200, Variety reported last year.
Rosengart told Page Six Jamie’s petition was ‘not only legally meritless’ but ‘an abomination’ under the circumstances of the case.
‘Mr. Spears reaped many millions of dollars from Britney as a conservator, while paying his lawyers millions more, all from Britney’s work and hard-earned money,’ Rosengart said of the previous arrangement.
Jamie was loaned $40,000 in 2008 – just before the conservatorship started – by Lou Taylor’s organization Tri Star Sports & Entertainment Group, the outlet reported, adding that Taylor’s attorney Charles Harder said that Jamie had ‘repaid’ the ‘small loan’ and that it had no impact on ‘Tri Star’s work for the estate in later years.’
Britney Spears’ scathing 20-minute tell-all after rejecting chance to air comments in Oprah Winfrey sitdown
Okay, so I woke up this morning, and I realized that there’s a lot going on in my head that I haven’t really shared with anyone really. And, and I’ve had tons of opportunities, Oprah interviews, to go on a platform and, and share hardships and or just really anything that’s going on in my mind. And I really don’t think any of that is relevant to getting paid to tell your story, I feel like it’s kind of silly. So I’m, I’m here, honestly, just to open myself to others and try to shed a light on if anyone out there has ever gone through hardships or whatever it is just to put a light on it. And so that person doesn’t feel alone, because I really know what that feels like.
I haven’t honestly shared this openly, too, as well, because I’ve always been scared of the judgement. And definitely the embarrassment of just of the whole thing, period. And the skepticism and the cynical people have what and their opinions of what people would actually think I do think I’m in a place now, where I’m a little bit more confident that I can be willing to share openly my thoughts and what I’ve been through because I haven’t really had that outlet to share completely openly, for so long, just scared of judgments, thoughts of other people and what they think or what they may say. And I think it’s crucial, from my heart and my head to be able to speak openly about it as if anyone else would. Well, the actual conservatorship actually started, I think, 15 or 16 years ago, I was 25.
When it started, I was extremely young. I remember a lot of my friends texting me and calling me and we’re extremely close, and they wanted to see me but by what had happened, honestly, still, to this day, don’t know what really I did. But the punishment of my father, I wasn’t able to, you know, see anyone or like anything. And you have to imagine none of it made sense to me. I literally spoken a British accent to a doctor to prescribe my medication. And three days later, there was a swap team in my home, Three helicopters. And I remember my mom’s best friend, and my two girlfriends we had asleep over the night before they held me down on their burner. And again, none of it made sense. Literally, the extent of my madness, was playing chess with when it was playing chase with paparazzi, which is still to this day, one of the most fun things I ever did about being famous. So I don’t know what was so harmful about that. But I remember my mom was sitting on the couch.
And she said, we’ve heard people are coming here today to talk to you. We should probably go, you know, to a hotel or something. And I never really understood what she meant. I didn’t believe her like as a lawyer coming here. Who is coming here. than four hours later, there were over 200 paparazzi outside my house videotaping me through a window of an ambulance holding me down on a groomer. I know now it was all premeditated. And a woman introduced the idea to my dad, and my mom actually helped him follow through and made it all happen. It was all basically set up. There was no drugs in my system, no alcohol, nothing. It was pure abuse. And I haven’t haven’t even really shared even half of it. I think the main thing I do remember when I was started was my dad’s control. He loved to control every thing I did. I remember the first he said, I’m Britney Spears, and I’m calling the shots and I’m like, Alrighty then. My brother was a football player.
And my dad was really, really hard on him when he was younger, really abusive. And I think when my mom gave him the idea for the conservatorship and his friend, I think he just really like regrouped it and made such a really, really overhauling big deal out of it. And it was just really too much. I remember him always being in the office. And my girlfriend was his assistant, and they would just stay in there all day with the door shut and I was never, ever able to leave or go anywhere. My first job after the two weeks of being hospitalized and completely traumatized out of my mind. I did a TV show called How I Met Your Mother. And then I started working on an album called circus I’m started working away right away.
All I do remember is I had to do what I was told. I was told I was fat every day I had to go to the gym, I had to just, and I’d never remember feeling so demoralized. And just, they made me feel like nothing. And I went along with it because I was scared. I was scared and fearful.
I didn’t even really do anything. And I had like a swap team and how like, none of it made sense to me. So since that day, I did probably four and a half tours, I did an album circus, Femme Fatale, Britney Jean and gory. And then I started doing a Vegas show and Las Vegas. And I did that for four and a half years. I do you remember working and I got to a point where, you know, because my pride and my 30s I have to live under my father’s rules. And you know, the dancers are playing and drinking and having fun at nights in Vegas. And I couldn’t do anything. And I remember just being like my performances. I know were horrible.
Like I even wore wigs and other dancers were doing all these nice sexy head flip turns and I had conditioner treatment and my hair and like these little caps over my head and just during a whole show getting conditioner treatments just with wigs on because I was just like a robot. Honestly, I just I didn’t give a f**k anymore. Because I couldn’t go where I wanted to go. I couldn’t have the nannies that I wanted to have. I couldn’t have cash. And it was just demoralizing. So I was kind of like an this conspiracy thing of people claiming and like treating me like a superstar.
But yet, they treated me like nothing. Well, for some reason, I started to get a spark back. I remember recording glory. And for some reason, I think producing and making music, I went to this little Spanish house and I got the fire back in my eyes, for some reason. And it was at the end of recording glory. And my son named it and things started kind of taking a turn because I started getting more confidence just for myself. And I think with confidence, people kind of like oh, wait, what, wait, what’s going on now, like she’s speaking up a little bit more. But it might not be particularly a good thing. If I’d been quiet for 15 years. I think with confidence comes enlightenment, which makes you think better. And that’s the last thing they wanted me to do was to actually be better. Cuz then who would be in control then. But it was really tricky because I had to just play this role that everything was okay all the time. And I had to go along with it because I knew they could hurt me.
So I’m sitting here like, like friends all drinking alcohol and having fun in these parties and had no cash. I literally felt like a nun. My girlfriend’s from home came to visit me in a spa and I couldn’t even walk into the spa and they had their feet doing pedicures in the water and the three ices of shampoo bottles of champagnes before my show just sitting there. And I wasn’t even acknowledged by them my own hometown friends when they would come to Vegas, and it was just it was demoralizing. I will say, you also have to understand it’s like, you know, 15 years of touring and doing shows. And I’m 30 years old under my dad’s rules.
And all of this is going on and my mom’s Whitney witnessing this. And my, my, my, my brother is Whitney, Whitney Houston and my friends are witnesses and they all go along with it. And I’m like, how am I the one working here doing all this, but I don’t get the side things that the good stuff, you know, I want to be able to play. I want to be able to have fun. Like, none of it made sense to me. Oh, the last show in Vegas ended 2000 I think 17 I went on tour tour I was forced to do but I was supposed to do a new show.
So the new show came along. I rehearsed I think maybe four days, which I don’t really remember. But I went to one of the rehearsals and I said no to a dance. And I was like No Can we do that? I don’t want to do this. And then they were just remember everything got really weird and quiet. And all the directors and producers went in the back room and just spoke. And that was it. And I was like well, I don’t know what’s going on. So we all just kind of like you know what happened and then the next day, I was told that I was had to be sent away to a facility and that I was supposed to say on my Instagram The reason why is because my dad is sick, and I need treatment which was I didn’t want to go ever Go there.
remember my dad calling me on the phone and I was crying. And I was like, why are you guys doing this? Like what? And I just remember him saying it’s, you have to listen to the doctors, the doctors are gonna tell you what to do, I can’t help you now. And I remember his last words were, now you don’t have to go. But if you don’t go, we’re gonna go go to court, and there’ll be a big trial, and you’re going to lose, I have way more people on my side than you, you don’t even have a lawyer. So they don’t even think of that. So I did it, I went to the place, I was scared out of my mind. And none of it again made any sense of what they were doing to me. And again, I haven’t wanted to share this because it’s unbelievably offensive, sad, abusive. And honestly, would anybody believe me?
I remember the main thing of when I was in that place that my heart felt like it was frozen, like it was stuck inside. I wanted to scream and I wanted to get out. And I think by a needle and thread, it was the breathing peacefully inward that I missed the most. I felt like I was in a state of shock. Almost like when an old person feels helpless, and they’re literally going through some sort of shock treatment and they can’t relax the body because they don’t have the answers of why they can’t have the own keys to their car and put it in the nation and walk outside and their own security guards at every door saying they can’t go sitting down, drawing six galls of blood every week. Weak as hell. And then calling in my family is in Destin. It might be Charles it didn’t make sense. The main thing I’d add to this day, I just kind of stopped believing in God at that time, because I didn’t know how they could have 40 people leave my house a day and me work from eight to six at night.
Be Seen changed every time I changed in the shower. No privacy, no door. Nothing. How did they get away with it? And what the f**k did I do to deserve that? I couldn’t even smoke cigarettes, people on death row can smoke cigarettes. I missed my AAA meetings. Although I was kind of forced to go to AAA and I’m not even an alcoholic. I actually enjoyed it because I thought the people were brilliant. They shared their stories, just to share their story in a circle of women and men who just are trying to be better people and trying to touch other people.
I missed my AAA meetings, I couldn’t go any I can have the keys in my car, No cash, no cigarettes, no door for privacy. It changed me. Watch me change that good every day. I did work seven days a week, no weekends were off. Or they monitored what I ate. from eight to six I work some times at nine o’clock I’d be able to watch a movie. The finally the owner of the whole facility that I was always texting to try to be able to go somewhere just get out of the house that place somehow. And he had to let me go. Because the free Britney campaign came out with all the pink T shirts.
I saw it on a lot of the morning shows and people by word of mouth and I think just by fans knowing by heart that something was up. I remember one of the guys were on an interview on the street and he said, You know, I could be totally wrong. And if I’m wrong, I’ll be really, really embarrassed. And I’ll just go have a drink somewhere, he said, but I do feel like something. They’re doing something to her right now. And I’m not sure really what it is. But that’s what my heart says. But the whole thing that made it really confusing for me is these people are on the street fighting for me, but my sister and my mother are doing anything. To me. It was like they secretly honestly liked me being the bad one like I was messed up and they kind of just liked it that way. Otherwise, why were they outside my doorstep saying baby girl get in the car. Let’s go. I think that’s the main thing that hurt me. I couldn’t process how my family went along with it for so long. And I mean, almost five months, almost half a year, you know. And their only was response was we didn’t know. I’m like, I’m on the phone telling you right now. I’m here, please. Eventually, by the grace of God and praying on my knees, I left the place.
But I was still scared. I was really really scared. And from then on I had some poured, I needed a lot of support. And I found two really, really great people that would come to my house weekly and just help me with my mind, because I didn’t understand all the therapy that I had to do there. But why have therapy when it’s forced, and in like a militant, almost prison like way that like is where you you’re not even all there and none of it made sense?
Well, I think my strength grew because I didn’t reach out to my dad anymore. And they were playing the game of ball and twist of you know, she’s going to come running back to us, because, you know, we’ve scared her. And we’re the bosses here. But I didn’t. I just stalled. And I stalled and I stalled and I stalled. And finally, I think they just knew I wasn’t going back. And I finally got a lawyer of what a wonderful friend finally got me a lawyer. And he really helped me through it. To me, the thing was, I think the trauma of all of it, and just the whole thing together and going down to how much effort and work and hard I put in to what I did when I did work, even down to the details of how many rhinestones are going to be in my costume. And I cared so much. And they literally killed me.
They threw me away. That’s what I felt like my family threw me away. I was performing for like 1000s of people at night in Vegas, the rush of being a performer, the laughter the joy, the respect. I was shaking over 40 people’s hands every night before show training weekly, three training sessions a week AAA meetings, therapy sessions. I my dad literally, I was a machine. I was a f***ing machine. Not even human. Almost it was it was insane how hard I worked. In the one time I speak up and say no in a rehearsals to a f***ing dance move. They got pissed. I feel like the scare tactic and how badly they treated me. In the end, I think they thought I was going to come back and back to work again. Because I was they thought, you know, I needed them. Because they they did they put me in an ignorant scared state of mine to make me feel like I needed them. And if you don’t do what we say we’re going to show you who’s boss. I didn’t play their game anymore.
I got on my knees every day and I prayed. I held on like a needle and thread to some sort of existence because they had made me feel like nothing for so long. I knew in the deepest, deepest part of my core. I knew I’d done nothing wrong and I didn’t deserve the way I’d been treated. I do think the hardest thing for me was I wanted to use my feet and leave and run or go somewhere. I had to be placed in a chair from like eight to six every day. I couldn’t take it. I talked to rabbis. I’ve talked to grown men about it. And they’re like, we don’t see how you did it. Honestly, I don’t either. And through that, I remember saying I don’t believe in God anymore. I honestly deserve an award for acting like I was okay. Every day. I thought they were trying to f***ing kill me.
I remember one time I was backstage and I needed my inhaler. And I opened up to my assistant, because I had my phone with me which I’m not supposed to have my phone underneath the stage. But I said to her, You know what I’m doing. I was talking to a guy and he wanted to just leave the country with me. We had it all set up to just leave. And it was a secret relationship. And I said, my biggest fear was what would my dad do? If I did do something wrong? What if I left the country? What and what if they found me and what would they do? And I said, I feel like they would lock me up or something or really hurt me. And she looked at me and she said, Are you kidding me? Brittany, your dad would never do that to you.
And I didn’t even do anything wrong, and he still did it. I’m honestly more angry at my mom because I heard when reporters would call her at the time and ask questions of what was going on. She would go innocently, innocently hide in the house, and she wouldn’t speak up. It was always like I don’t know what to say. I just don’t want to say the wrong thing. We’re praying for her. I feel like she could have gotten me a lawyer In literally two seconds, my friend helped me get one in the end. But I truly every time I made contact with a firm, my phone was tapped and they would take my phone away from me.
And again, I get nothing out of sharing all of this I have offers to do interviews with Oprah and so many people lots of lots of money, but it’s insane. I don’t want any of it. For me, it’s beyond a sit down proper interview. I had no contact in that place for so long. And my heart would just want to stand up in my family’s faces and scream and cry, and throw a tantrum and go back in time and do exactly what I wanted to do with those times. Yeah, and might even spit in their fucking faces. Why? Because the pain my family gave me, sitting me there all day and not being able to use my feet, is they watch their grandchildren run basis to base in a family family neighborhood.
As if I’m dead, or I don’t exists, honestly makes me look up and say, How the fuck did they get away with it? How is there a god? Is there a God giving eight goals of blood weekly not being able to stand up? I was so so so weak. In my families that might be chose. I was scared broken. I’m sharing this because I want people to know I’m only human. I do feel victimized after these experiences. And how can I mend this if I don’t talk about it? I have an amazing song right now with one of the most brilliant men of our time and I’m so grateful but if you’re a weird if you’re a weird introvert oddball like me, who feels alone a lot of the time and you needed to hear a story like this day so you don’t feel alone. Know this my life has been far from easy and you’re not alone.
‘Holy s***!’ Britney Spears reacts to her duet with Elton John reaching number one in 40 countries via Twitter video… after deleting her Instagram AGAIN
The single – a collaboration with Sir Elton John – is entitled Hold Me Closer, and mixes his 1971 hit Tiny Dancer with his 1992 song The One, as well as parts of Don’t Go Breaking My Heart from 1976.
Less than a day after the new song dropped, Britney, 40, tweeted a video filmed in the bath in which she playfully put on an English accent and said: ‘Hello, Sir Elton John, we are like number one in 40 countries.’
Stunned: Britney Spears exclaimed: ‘HOLY S***!’ on Twitter after her first new single in six years reportedly topped the iTunes charts in 40 countries
She then lapsed back into her natural American accent to excitedly yell: ‘HOLY S***!’ before reverting to the English accent to say with a wink: ‘I’m in the tub right now, and I’m about to go have the best day ever and I hope you’re well.’
Her video came as the New York Daily News reported Hold Me Closer had rocketed to number one on iTunes in 40 countries within hours of its release.
Britney deleted her Instagram page when the song dropped, but she has been posting celebratory videos on Twitter in the wake of its success.
In one new clip, she could be seen sitting cross legged at the edge of the bath, apparently nude except for a towel draped across her lap.
To her duet partner: She tweeted a video filmed in the bath in which she playfully put on an English accent and said: ‘Hello, Sir Elton John, we are like number one in 40 countries’
Social media maven: Britney deleted her Instagram page when the song dropped, but she has been posting celebratory videos on Twitter in the wake of its success
She also had herself filmed smiling and waving while strutting through a hallway as her and Sir Elton’s new song played.
Britney was decked out in a chic ensemble including a monochrome wrap coat, a matching pair of sunglasses and a summery straw hat.
‘Keep smiling folks … KEEP SMILING!!!’ the Womanizer singer wrote above the video, adding: ‘Psss I LOVE YOU ALL !!!’
Sizzling sensation: In one new clip, she could be seen sitting cross legged at the edge of the bath, apparently nude except for a towel draped across her lap
Promo: She also had herself filmed smiling and waving while strutting through a hallway as her and Sir Elton’s new song played
Looking fab: ‘Keep smiling folks … KEEP SMILING!!!’ the Womanizer singer wrote above the video, adding: ‘Psss I LOVE YOU ALL !!!’
As delighted fans rushed to Twitter to praise the tune, Sir Elton, 75, revealed he hoped the single would be a hit in order to restore Britney’s confidence and inspire her to keep making music.
Ahead of the single being released at midnight on Thursday, the British singer admitted he could relate to Britney, 40, being ‘broken’ and revealed that it had been a struggle to work together as Britney had understandably been ‘fearful’ to return to music following the end of her 13-year conservatorship at the hands of her father Jamie.
Sir Elton told The Guardian: ‘It’s hard when you’re young. Britney was broken. I was broken when I got sober. I was in a terrible place. Now, I’ve got the experience to be able to advise people and help them because I don’t want to see any artists in a dark place.
‘Britney was broken and fearful’: Elton John has said he hopes new single with Spears will ‘restore her confidence’ – as fans go wild for starlet’s first song in SIX years
He added that Britney had to approve the music, explaining: ‘She’s been away so long – there’s a lot of fear there, because she’s been betrayed so many times and she hasn’t really been in the public eye officially for so long.
‘We’ve been holding her hand through the whole process, reassuring her that everything’s gonna be all right.’
The Crocodile Rock singer went on to blast the conservatorship she was under, noting ‘What happened to her shouldn’t have happened to anybody.’
Tune: The single – a collaboration with Sir Elton John – is entitled Hold Me Closer, and mixes his 1971 hit Tiny Dancer with his 1992 song The One, while parts of Don’t Go Breaking My Heart from 1976 also feature in the track
No doubt the outpouring of love and support from the singer’s fans will aid in restoring her confidence, with Hold Me Closer rocketing to the top of the music charts within hour of its release.
Taking to Twitter to praise the collaboration, fans penned: ‘I just heard #HoldMeCloser for the first time. Britney you sound so beautiful and I am so proud of you, your fans will be with you and ALWAYS!’; ‘finally can officially say it… NEW BRITNEY SPEARS MUSIC. #HoldMeCloser’;
‘Hold Me Closer represents Britney joining Elton John at a moment when she’s with no confidence, but he took her hand and showed that she is actually ready to take her place back. #HoldMeCloser @britneyspears @eltonofficial’; ‘It’s perfect, @britneyspears #HoldMeCloser’;
‘Happy Britney day!!!! Currently at number 1 on uk iTunes welcome back my queen #HoldMeCloser’; ‘NUMBER 1 ON THE US ITUNES CHARTS SO SO DESERVED #HoldMeCloser’; ‘i’m so excited to support #HoldMeCloser for britney now that she has full creative control. she deserves to see how much we’re there for her and the amount of love we have for her without a doubt
‘I know my favorite adlib is gone from the final version but the production is so much better it really makes up for it. Plus there are several others that stayed and continue to bless our ears. This song is honestly so good, I’m OBSESSED. #HoldMeCloser’;
‘#HoldMeCloser is so beautiful! I got emotional listening to @britneyspears vocals. She is so resilient and strong, you can feel it through her voice! Thinking about the things she went through and yet she still POWERFUL as ever! ❤️ I LOVE U’;
‘6 years ago to the day Britney dropped her last body of work ‘Glory’, and shortly after embarked on one of the most difficult chapters of her life: gaining her freedom. Now shes returned to music with a stellar bop alongside another legend, Elton John, we MUST stan. #HoldMeCloser [sic]’.
While fans were delighted by the new music, critics were polarised, with The Telegraph’s Neil McCormick awarding the single just one star, penning: ‘Cobbled together from two far better songs, it’s a dreamy little wisp of a thing that plays to neither of their strengths and coasts along on novelty value alone.’
The Guardian’s Michael Cragg gave the tune four stars, however, writing: ‘For diehard Spears fans, or indeed anyone with a passing knowledge of one of the most distinctive pop vocalists of all time, hearing her sing again feels like a real moment.’
Shortly after the song hit streaming platforms, Britney’s husband Sam Asghari took to Instagram to show support and to express just how ‘proud’ he is of Spears.
‘Words can’t describe how f****ing proud I am!’ he wrote atop a screenshot of Hold Me Closer actively playing on his iPhone. Another shot showed the 28-year-old actor playing the track through his car’s sound system.
Britney and Sam wed in June after five years of dating. Coincidentally, the duo met on set of the music video she filmed for her song Slumber Party – which would be her last until her latest release.
Along with the support of those closest to her, Britney took it upon herself to promote Hold Me Closer to her fans ahead of its premiere.
She published three tweets to her Twitter account on Wednesday, which marked her first use of the account since June 15.
Supportive spouse: Shortly after the song hit streaming platforms, Britney’s husband Sam Asghari took to Instagram to show support and to express just how ‘proud’ he is of Spears
‘Words can’t describe how f****ing proud I am!’ he wrote atop a screenshot of Hold Me Closer actively playing on his iPhone
Louder! In another shot, it showed the 28-year-old actor playing the track through his car’s sound system
She wrote: ‘Okie dokie … my first song in 6 years !!!! It’s pretty damn cool that I’m singing with one of the most classic men of our time … @eltonofficial!!!! I’m kinda overwhelmed… it’s a big deal to me!!!’
Britney added that she is ‘meditating more and learning [her] space is valuable and precious!!!’ adding she is ‘learning everyday is a clean slate to try and be a better person and do what makes me happy,’ adding, ‘yes I choose happiness today.’
She went on to say she’s looking to gain more confidence, penning, ‘I want to be fearless like when I was younger and not be so scared and fearful.’
She added: ‘I pray there actually is truth to the Holy Spirit and I hope that spirit is with my children as well!!! Yes … I choose happiness and joy today!!!’
Page Six reported last month that Britney had joined up with the English singer and composer in Beverly Hills to record the track, which first appeared on his 1971 album Madman Across The Water.
Feeling good: Along with the support of those closest to her, Britney took it upon herself to promote Hold Me Closer to her fans ahead of its premiere
Elton appears to be the one who came up with the idea of the collaboration, but it seems to be an ideal soft launch for Britney to reinvigorate her musical career after staying silent in the final years of her now-defunct conservatorship.
‘This was Elton’s idea, and Britney is a huge fan. They have recorded a remix of Tiny Dancer as a full duet — and it is incredible,’ a music industry insider told the outlet.
The source added that Britney traveled to a studio located in Beverly Hills with Elton to record the song out of the public eye which was ‘overseen by uber-producer Andrew Watt.’
Watt has worked with several high-profile pop and rock acts — including Miley Cyrus, Justin Bieber, Camilla Cabello and Pearl Jam — and he has collaborated multiple times with Elton, which suggests he would be an ideal pick for the two artists.
According to the source, Britney and Elton’s new single is already a hit with record company executives.
‘They’ve already played it for people at their record label, and everybody is freaking out. It is so good,’ they gushed. ‘They are saying this is going to be the song of the summer.
‘Britney is officially back,’ they added. ‘She’s back to work, and she’s super excited.’
‘She truly is an icon, one of the all-time great pop stars and she sounds amazing on this record. I love her dearly and am delighted with what we’ve created together,’ Elton said in a statement.
Britney, in her statement, told Elton it was an honor to be asked, saying: ‘I am so grateful that I got the opportunity to work with you and your legendary mind.’
Elton and Britney first met in 2014 at an Oscars party and she later tweeted her love of Tiny Dancer, sowing the seeds for the latest collaboration.